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To Most People I Look Normal
Things changed when I finally started helping myself
I know what it’s like to be so hungry it hurts.
I spent a lot of years living on the streets.
In the end I was literally crippled by my drinking and drug use. I checked into the shelter I’d been at before. The only reason they let me in was because I couldn’t walk, but they were tired of watching me come and go and never getting anywhere.
Nobody was willing to waste their time helping me, so I finally started helping myself. I pushed myself as hard as I could trying to walk. After a few months I could get around.
But I started drinking again.
Then my wife died of an overdose. That lit a fire under me. A friend of mine said I could stay with him for a month but I couldn’t drink and had to go to AA.
Before I knew it, I had been there a year, hadn’t drank, and was getting my driver’s license after seventeen years without it.
Now, in spite of being a felon several times over, I am gainfully employed, I own my own house, I am getting custody of my youngest son.
To most people I look “normal,” even though most of my life I was a dirty junkie that they would cross the street to avoid.
I’ve been sober for years now and can only guess how much better it will get.