First mammogram (or “baseline” in medical terms) results are in ... nothing suspicious in either breast!
I don’t know if people reading my posts just overlook my posts about my health, but I’ve been telling my story to some people that it’s something when as a counselor, you were advising/encouraging others to look at the holistic values of their health--physical (in all areas), mental, emotional, spiritual--to help their healing process...but way different and eye opening when you’re on the other side of the coin and having to learn how to do that yourself to help your own healing process.
I have to admit, that part of me was doing the mammogram not only as a routine encouragement for women, but to rule out any possible, underlying physical ailments that could have been contributing to the epilepsy’s increased seizures.
And, I have to admit that I am going to look into seeking therapy to help on this continued journey of the epilepsy, for honestly that deep breath of...I just want this to end, and get back to some sort of “normal” that I “used to have.”
But, as I know from my previous therapist who I had when I was first diagnosed, and with the amazing grief group I attend at Hospice and Community Care ... when a major event happens in life, the reality is, there is no going back to “the old normal.” Eventually, you must accept the “new normal.” And it won’t be easy, and acceptance won’t be easy in any way. But, somehow, some way, there will be a way.
One of the reasons why I do share the roughness, and non-sugarcoatedness of my journeys, and I’ll admit, the non “there is always purpose, God will make a way” that you’ll often get when you’re going through hard times of life is not many people don’t share or open up because they may feel that people who haven’t experienced what they’ve experienced don’t/won’t understand. And I’ll use the openness and realness of my stories and journeys to hopefully help someone who’s reading it to realize that he/she/they aren’t alone in their hurt/pain/unsureness/chaos as they’re trying to make sense.
And it’s in the midst of that trying to make sense of everything when that spiritual healing will eventually happen. And maybe the mental healing that’s needed. And just like with weight loss and physical health, it won’t happen overnight. The reality is, it could take years. It could take ups, and downs, and resets, and downfalls, and “I’ll get back on track eventually” and stepping away from the goals you had in mind, and revising the goals, until it starts to happen.
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